Can I still trust a God who lets the worst tragedy happen?
LOUISVILLE, Ky. (BP) – Can I still trust a God who lets the worst tragedy happen?
For most Christians, that question has to be answered only in theory. But for three graduates of Southern Baptist Theological Seminary, it recently became terrifyingly real.
Todd Borger, Greg Bruckert and Ron McLain were all serving overseas when their children died suddenly within the last year. Through the tragedies, however, they and their wives committed to remain faithful in their service to Christ.
Todd and Timberley Borger were serving in the Pacific Rim, where Todd, a 2002 Ph.D. graduate, taught Old Testament and Bible at a Baptist seminary. On the field, their children Samuel, 11, and Anna, 9, worked with them to penetrate the culture with the Gospel.
But in May 2008 the unthinkable happened. Anna and her mother were riding bicycles when they accidentally became separated. Anna then approached a bridge over a creek, but she missed the bridge and plummeted 30 feet into a ravine and died on impact.
“All of the memories I have of Anna are fond memories,” said Todd Borger, who serves currently as Pacific Rim visiting professor of missions at Southern. “They’re all good memories. There were a lot of gracious things in what God did in her death.
“But what has sustained me in this is the knowledge that Anna had a deep, deep relationship with Christ. And there’s no doubt in my mind about where she is and who she is with. It would be very difficult if I didn’t have that certainty.”
Although Borger told his wife before having children that he did not want his children to be baptized at an early age, Anna shattered his plans. She believed the Gospel at age 5 and began witnessing to others in elementary school.
An e-mail Anna sent the day before her death made evident her continuing zeal for sharing the Gospel. She asked a former teacher to pray that she “would be able to show God’s love in its various forms” to a group of local girls who befriended her.
In addition to her love for Christ, Anna demonstrated unusual intellectual gifts. She began reading at age 3 and devoured hundreds of books before her death. By age 7, she had read most of the Bible and the entire “Chronicles of Narnia” series several times. She was also the family expert on Greek mythology and had started memorizing important Shakespearean passages.
The Borgers are still deciding whether to return to the Pacific Rim but, whatever their decision, they will use their lives to share the Gospel with urgency and sincerity.
“I think I do what I do better now because I want to do it well,” Borger said. “I want to make it worth something. I think before [the accident] I didn’t have that sense of urgency to what I did.”
Greg and Shelly Bruckert felt similar emotions after their son Jonathan was killed in a car accident in July at age 22.
Twenty-two-year veterans of the Pacific Rim, the Bruckerts have devoted their lives to training ministers and teaching agricultural techniques to local farmers as a way to share the Gospel. Greg graduated from Southern with a master of divinity degree in 1981 and a master of arts in Christian education in 1985.
On the day of the accident Jonathan was headed home from Campbellsville University in Campbellsville, Ky., to Louisville where the family was visiting. Jonathan was scheduled to graduate from the university in December 2008.
But five miles outside Campbellsville, on a notoriously dangerous highway, another vehicle crossed the centerline and struck Jonathan’s car, killing him instantly.
Greg Bruckert said that while he experienced great pain when his older brother died in late 2007, “it’s nothing compared to this, nothing…. If you’ve known anyone who’s ever lost a child, you know a little of what I’m saying.”
In the midst of their grief, the Bruckerts were comforted by Jonathan’s obvious love for Christ. The year before his death, he decided to serve where his parents serve. He also began to acquire a longing for holiness.
In a book that rested beside Jonathan’s bed, his parents found a note he had written: “Holiness is not something uncool, but it is wild, courageous and above average.”
“Since all that happened, I’ve just felt a real unction to preach on holiness,” Greg Bruckert said, “because the greatest need in the United States in the church is holiness. Our churches are being so influenced by moral relativism.”
During the months following Jonathan’s accident, Greg and Shelly struggled with whether to return to the Pacific Rim. Finally, at the urging of his wife and two daughters, Greg decided to return.
“We don’t want this horrible thing to just rob us,” he said. “If we’ve had Jon taken away, we don’t want [sharing the Gospel] to have to be taken away too.”
Ron and Renee McLain likewise felt a burden to continue their work after their daughter, Rebecca Pruitt, was brutally murdered in November in Laurel, Miss. Ron McLain lives in Bruxelles, Belgium.
Pruitt, 29, let two people into her home when they told her they needed to use the phone. She even fed them lunch before they beat her into unconsciousness, bound her with duct tape, stabbed her in the back 18 times and set her on fire with gasoline. The two suspects told police they stole $30 in cash, Pruitt’s cell phone, purse and her vehicle, which they later abandoned.
Ron McLain, a 1998 Ph.D. graduate, said God’s grace has been apparent despite horrendous pain.
“As we search for clarity and comprehension, God searches for trust,” he said. “Nevertheless, grace is the final word. When God begins to stretch us to redefine our definition of fairness, He enlarges our faith with the ultimate goal of increasing our capacity to trust and follow Him. His grace, like water, will always flow to the lowest parts. The light has been dimmed, but we continue in the light we have presently.”
As an elementary school teacher, Pruitt dedicated herself to caring for underprivileged children, whom she believed could succeed in life if they learned to read. She taught second and third grades during her time in the Laurel school district.
McLain said he and Renee can continue living for Christ because they want to show others He is worthy of their trust regardless of the circumstances – a sentiment shared by the Borgers and the Bruckerts.
“We continue to acknowledge that God is worthy of our trust during our confusion and pain,” McLain said. “And with that kind of faith demonstrated in the midst of what we don’t understand, there are people watching how we handle this tragedy and looking to see if Jesus really does make a difference.
“After all, this is the Gospel that we have been sharing for years …. In other words, they want to know if we really live and believe what we teach and preach.”